But at a young age, I didn't really need a recovery period after I worked out. I didn't have to worry about the food I was putting in my body to help it recover and stretching was ridiculous to me because none of the stretches were hard but I was so excited that I got to do what they were doing and that it was in fact fun! I would do several of my mom's work out videos (including Jane Fonda and Sweatin To The Oldies) and it was never enough! I miss those days.
To be honest, I have grown to be afraid of the recovery period. As I got older and there was an increasing amount of things to balance into my life, I'd have to really WORK to workout... I'd get so excited to start a workout program but that excitement would last for a limited time because...recovery period. I'd realize on my off days that I really like to sleep in... That I miss the good food. And it's nice to not have to get dressed for a workout, shower, then get dressed again for work, then get dressed again to go out. Dressing becomes such a chore! The laundry builds up faster... and I have to make sure I'm eating proper food to help my body fuel
and recover... And then try to sleep so my body can perform the way it should. It's a tough world! But then the reality hits that working out and eating healthy makes you feel sooo good. You look good in clothes you didn't think you could wear, you are so strong, you start living life with a new found upbeat confidence and there's so much stress relief. And then you realize that you need the workouts so that you don't end up a serial killer. It becomes an obsession...And that's when the recovery days are actually the HARDEST to do... For me a part of it was because there's always that though that maybe I won't be able to jump back in the next workout and a part of it was that I really didn't want to become a serial killer. That was a real concern.
But I got injured after I was put on a medicine that affects the joints and bones... then had a ton of crap happen at home and I actually didn't feel safe working out there. I couldn't get my head into running place and didn't have the funds to join a gym. I didn't really have a ton of people I could turn to... It was really sad. It felt like I was in the wrong place and it didn't feel like I had much of a life to care about. It sounds pathetic but that's just how I felt.
So I had an opportunity to move from Utah to Texas and I jumped on it!! I feel renewed. I have made a couple of friends. I went out on my "first night out on the town" and had so much fun. I made a discovery.
Sometimes a person needs a recovery period in their life!It's so true!!! It wasn't until I completely stopped EVERYTHING I've been doing and looked at the world again that I started healing.
I've been here for 3 weeks, I have a lot going on right now. I just moved to a different state and trying to open a new office for my employer. I've been hit with so many problems with my job here... I'm struggling with my insurance company to have things transferred to Texas. I can't register my car until I have that! I have no furniture!! I have completely used up my savings to get here and get re-started. There were two weeks of horrific storms - tornado watches, flooding, rain and lightening. It made it look like I had installed a strobe light in my room. My roof on my car leaked twice... And yet, I took that time to just be... I enjoyed the storms I saw on my patio or through my living room window. They were scary but beautiful. I cleaned up the car and didn't let it bother me because I don't want to waste any time enjoying life. I was afraid of the flooding but I can't control that... So even though there was MAJOR flooding everywhere around my home, I wasn't too worried. I already just upped and moved everything so I honestly know I could rebuild if I had to. I made it through the storms with a pretty great attitude which shocked myself!
I'm so refreshed!! I am ready to workout again. I am ready to meet new people and bring on new challenges. I'm excited to grow and to not look back! Sometimes, as a human being, I really need to just stop and breath and refocus. Why is that so hard? There is nothing that is going to make the world stop throwing chaos around. It's EVERYWHERE... So I either need to relocate my life every time I can't handle it (which is very expensive and not recommended), or figure out who I am and learn to make that work for me. I need to enjoy this life because it
is the only one I've got. And I feel like I am in the right place to do that. I look around and see so much opportunity. I have concerns, of course.
Financially I have to rebuild from scratch. But I have a roof over my head and so many people praying and supporting me from a distance and that is awesome.
I'm worried my job won't work out... So many things are happening. It's a new experience, we're trying to build something great but there are many people involved that don't see eye to eye. It's going to be very dramatic every day. There are so many directions its already going. But I will do my best to be supportive to my new boss. I will do everything I can to make this work. And I know that I have been empowered to change MY position with the company should I desire. That's important to remember. Nobody has to do anything they don't want to. You can change what happens in your life so that it becomes amazing!!
I'm about to start my old workout program again. SOOOO excited!! I'm taking it at my own pace though. I get so competitive and sometimes rush a work out or rush myself! I lose focus quickly. I get burned out easily. I don't eat enough to really help my body (I have a fast metabolism). I compare myself to the people throwing before and after pics or who actually put the program together. But this is going to be a new me. I'm going to become strong Inside and out. I'm going to put reminders everywhere what my specific goals are. To work on my MIND by focusing on my BODIES movements and needs. There is a balance in all things. I've got a strong body. It's got it's problems but it works and it's amazing. So I'm going to make it work better!
*"God gave us the gift of feelings, and feelings are good. But feelings should simply be indicators-- but never dictators-- of how we react to our situations."* -- Lysa Turkeurst
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